Today I turned a year older. But unlike others who would make a show of keeping their age a secret, I am proud to tell anybody who cares to asks that I am now 30 years old. I don’t really see any point of hiding one’s age unless 1.) you look older than your age 2.) you act immature for your age and 3.) you don’t act your age at all. Well, I am neither one. My birthday was just like any ordinary day with a lot of extraordinary things happening. I realized that a lot of people really cares for me—my husband, my family, my colleagues, my small circle of friends at work, my former and present students, my friends who I haven’t seen for a long time but whose presence I constantly feel in special events like this and old friends from way way back who never fails to make a comeback in my life. They all remembered and they all made me realize how far I’ve come. I can say that I’ve lived this 30 years well, for them and because of them. It is not me who made me but all the people that has been and still are part of my life.
I do not have any regrets. I am living a full life and I have come full circle. In my thirty years of living I’ve realized quite a lot of things. I realized that in life, you have to make things happen if you want something going in your life. You should not wait for somebody to come who will make you happy. You have to find happiness in other things for if you depend on others to give you the happiness that you are searching for, you will forever feel robbed if they let you down or if it doesn’t work out. Happiness is a choice, you either let yourself be carried away or drown in your frustration, loneliness, sorrow, anger or despair OR choose to snap out of it and just live. It is you who calls the shots in your life. Some people just love you and some people just don’t, we just have to remember that we are not born to please others but ourselves. If people say hurtful things to you, always remember that it doesn’t say much about the kind of person you are but the kind of person that person is. How others see you is not what is important but how you view yourself and how proud you are of what you see are what’s important. Look good and feel good inside out not for others and not because of others but for yourselves and because you want to yourself. Problems and difficulties will always be there, so why ran away from them, it is better to face them head on and deal with them right away than forever search for that perfect life, job or relationship that for all you know may never happen at all. Do not expect your partner to be perfect coz in the first place you are not perfect yourself. You have to share whatever you can share, for it will come back to you in blessings in least expected moments. Fate, luck and destiny all boils down to what is meant to be…what is meant to be is actually how you want your life to be, for in life we are forever presented with choices…so it is just a matter of picking the right choice and at the same time being open to life’s little pleasant surprises. A while ago, our department, just for fun, raffled a couple of girly items, my number was picked and guess what I got—a red lipstick—fate, luck, destiny or meant to be?—nah, I guess this is one of those life’s little pleasant surprises…so its happy birthday to me everyday again… 🙂