If you are going to ask me if its possible to have your whole world fall apart twice in a row, my answer is NO because second time around, you will know exactly how to keep it together. And you will be surprised that when you look behind your back, there are actually a lot of people embracing you and helping you hold your ground. 
I thought losing my husband last year was the most difficult and painful thing that can ever happen to me. I thought wrong, learning that my only child has cancer is. My daughter was diagnosed with Papillary Carcinoma about two weeks ago, in layman’s term, thyroid cancer.  Though it is a type of cancer that is very common in adults, easily manageable, curable and controllable, it is very very rare in children.
I remember how frightened I was the first time I saw the lump in my daughter’s neck.  Ultrasound showed a thyroid nodule growing at about 4 cm. in a span of a month.  Though there weren’t any physical manifestations of cancer yet at the time we sought medical opinion, all the lab tests showed that something amiss was going on inside my daughter’s body.  The odds that it is malignant was high. Fine needle aspiration biopsy later confirmed my worst fear. A surgery was ordered as soon as possible as the doctors raced to arrest the further spread of the cancer cells.
The events following our first check up, which was around third week of October, was a blur. Everything happened so fast.  But if there’s one thing that kept me focused, if there’s one thing that sustained me during this whole ordeal, it is my faith that God will see us through this. In a span of less than a month, God led us to the best doctors and the right medical institution.  He sent his mighty angels–our friends, family members, and co-workers–to rally behind us with their words of love, encouragement, and support. Never once did we feel that we were alone in this.   He provided me with financial provisions for all the tests and treatments that needed to be done.
The way God worked swiftly to make all things possible during our whole ordeal left me humbled. As I stood in awe, caught in the middle of an avalanche of miracles from heaven, there’s only one thing running through my mind.  It is that, what have I done to deserve all these goodness.  There was never a prayer that was left unanswered during the whole time I was seeking treatment for my daughter.  I only ask for little from the Lord, but he gave me so much more.
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My daughter had her surgery last Thursday, coincidentally, my husband’s birthday.  I would like to think that he was busy moving heaven while I was busy moving earth that day just so our Bianca will be well.  She is recovering beautifully now. We still have a long way to go in terms of treatment but if there’s one thing I learned from this experience, it is that everything is indeed ready in the plan of God. He has everything laid out in front of us, all we have to do is pray, believe, trust, and claim His will. For His will is always always what is best for us.

About Me

I am better known as Nan’s widow, Bianca Angela’s mom, and Woodrose’s Mrs. Dela Cruz.  I am a full time teacher and mentor, a freelance writer for various print and online publications, a marathoner, and a curator of inspiring faith stories.
I am also the author of the best selling book, Grace Upon Grace: A widow’s journey.:)


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